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I used to talk about my experiences.. until I felt like they had overstayed their welcome. I was always looking to teach and eventually felt like I no longer was. in 2020 I decided fuck that. sometimes there is no outward advice to give. but I am still going to tell the story. even if there isn't a rainbow and butterflies "and now I'm a better me because of it" ending. here it is. here is what I have to say.



Sunflower September 2, 2019

& then they are gone

I am a highly emotional person with uncontrollable feelings. I can't help when I feel sad or mad or highly disappointed. I can't help if I ever feel the need to sit down and cry. in fact I want to ri...

Sunflower August 6, 2019

The Self Care Mindset

Self care is a lot harder to achieve than what people think. Self care requires someone who is normally selfless to become selfish, and for them to think about themselves even though they are alw...

Sunflower April 5, 2019


6:47am Here I am, with my cup of creamer with coffee added and my heated blanket on my brand new recliner watching CNN. I feel old. But I also feel like first thing in the morning is mine. It's my...

Sunflower January 17, 2019

I Just Said, “Enough”.

This post contains affiliate links to products I love. There was no epiphany, or moment of realization. I just felt like shit, woke up one day and was like, "Okay, enough is enough." and then...

Sunflower October 16, 2018

My Social Anxiety is Real, and its Paralyzing

My social anxiety is one complex monster. Before I take off on this post, I would like to take a moment to define social anxiety for the crowd: "The defining feature of social anxiety disorder, also ...

Sunflower October 9, 2018

Lack of Accountability; My 22nd Year

“a lot of times we are angry at other people for not doing what we should have done for ourselves - responsibility” ― Rupi Kaur, The Sun and Her Flowers   Accountability meant th...

Sunflower August 26, 2018

Making Changes

There are so many changes that I want to make. The only problem being is that those changes are still in my head. What makes it worse is that I can actually see the results of those changes in my hea...

Sunflower May 22, 2018

The Curse of Always Wanting More

When my parents were together, I always had more. My parents made sure me and my siblings always had new clothes, sports equipment, food on the table, tv to watch. Although strict, they always provid...

Sunflower March 11, 2018

Chelsey + Getting Real Emotion

One of the greatest parts about photographing people is getting them to show real emotion. Most of the time, people clam up when you shove a camera in their face. Kid you not, 9 times out of 10 the v...

Sunflower February 21, 2018

I Don’t Even Know Anymore

I put a lot of time and energy into this blog. oh yeah, and money. It seems like now a days I am unable to sit down and right a decent post. I feel like I am always whining or complaining. I was h...