Chelsey + the Flowers in the Tub

“The kindest words my father said to me Women like you drown oceans.” ― Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey One of the greatest feelings is when I conquer new things. Whether they are just something I have always wanted to try, or if I had been scared to attempt it. This photo shoot, I simply had not attempted. I honestly never thought I would be able to. Never in a million years did I think someone I knew would let me. Yet, here we are. I’m not going to lie, Chelsey did amaaaazinngggg. Cause I had no idea what I was doing or how they were going to turn out. I knew what I had pictured in my head more than likely wasn’t going to happen in real life but I was still hopeful. Honestly, 99% of the time I was just trying to make sure my ISO wasn’t too high. I didn’t want to lose a whole afternoon to too much noise. But then I would snap shots that made me excited. The ones where the light was hitting just right. Or the fierceness was just too much to handle. As the time went on, I could tell she was getting more comfortable. (Even though it was so hot in that bathroom!!) This was my very first “Bath Tub Water” session.. Or whatever you would call it. And Chelsey was a trooper. There were a lot of laughs and a lot of sitting and staring. Was also a lot of lens changing. There was even a point where I wasn’t sure that any of the photos were going to be usable. But for my first try, I think I nailed it. It helped to have such a beautiful subject. I hope to offer an all around experience soon, because I really want to help people feel their best human. Too many of us struggle with body positivity and self love. I want to help. Here are a few more from her session: Pin it! And If you would like to schedule a session with me, you can read all about it here.  

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Beautiful Sunflowers in Water

“if the ocean can calm itself, so can you. we are both salt water mixed with air.” – Nayyirah Waheed My summer was filled with photographing beautiful humans. Body positivity is so hard. One day you can be completely for you. Everything is beautiful, and fuck what every one else says. Then the next day, all you can see is flaws and all you can think about is what every one has said. It’s one of the worst roller coasters you can be on. I want to get off, and these ladies do too. They all feared what they would look like, and it took a little while to get them truly comfortable. But once they did, that’s when the magic happened. Stephanie She was the first that dived into the water to produce magic! She isn’t one to really be serious, but she looks like a fucking Sports Illustrated Model! I mean look at her glowing green eyes. When those bad boys caught the light just right… goosebumps. She’s such a natural babe, with a gorgeous smile and beautiful personality to match. Could you imagine seeing yourself for the first time from someone else’s eyes? Her first reaction was, “YASSSS!” Savannah Savannah’s session produced one of my favorite photos to date. Yup, its the one in the middle. It is so powerful. We need to love our bodies and treat them well. In order to do that we need to start mentally. Telling ourselves we love what we see and what we are made of. As you can see she enjoyed all of my suggestions. They were different from past sessions with her, but they made her open up and laugh. She has such an amazing smile. She thanked me later for not only making her feel beautiful, but for all that I do for each of my sunflowers. Elizabeth This woman. Haha. It is so hard to put into words how I feel about this woman. She’s always been so real, and promoted loving yourself. It was her that propelled me to go into the self love direction. She is so strong, although I think at times she needs a reminder. Look at how stunning she is! She owned this session. All the nip slips in the world couldn’t stop her from loving her body and enjoying herself. She almost cried when she saw these. I truly only…

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The Temporary Feeling

“you look at me and cry everything hurts i hold you and whisper but everything can heal” ― Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey We are given the gift of feelings. It is what gives us so much more out of life. When we feel sad, we cry. We cry by ourselves, and we cry with others. But when we are happy, we laugh. We laugh and the whole world, it seems, is laughing with us. Our temporary feelings come with outlets to be able to bring them out. I would never wish not to feel, because who would I be then? My whole persona is based on my ability to constantly laugh and smile. To see the brighter side for others, even if I cannot see them for myself. The ability to see the brighter side, is based on me feeling hope. So who would I be? But those temporary feelings at times destroy me. Sometimes they can take all of my energy and will and suffocate me. Until I truly feel like dying. I stop laughing. I stop hoping. It all just stops. I can feel it creeping up now, as I try to figure out what I am going to do with the rest of my life. It is as if the world is picking on me. Like everyone else is having a good time, and I am just standing in the corner waiting to go home. That comes with the territory. The ability to feel so strongly is probably why I struggle with depression. Because when I am happy, I am truly happy. But when I am sad, it is like the sky has gone black. There are no stars to help guide me, but instead, the darkness is consuming me. But what I have learned throughout the years, is that these are all temporary feelings. They all eventually pass, as long as you let them. When I lost a dear friend of mine, I felt a different sadness I had never felt before. I had thought I would always have this feeling when I thought of her. However, after 2 years, that isn’t the case. Instead of constant anger and sadness, I feel grateful for knowing her. Happy from the memories I will always have of her. Eager to carry on her legacy. In an instant, the tides change. Instead of pushing against them, I have learned to…

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