Skylar + The Fabulous Green Empty Lot Next to Kroger

Have you ever just seen an area and thought it had wasted potential? There is this area near where I work that is just sitting there. The grass has grown really tall and it honestly looks like a jungle. But like a mini jungle, for like children. Enter Skylar! This was right up her alley! She turned a wasted mini jungle into a photogenic playground. I mean even her black and white photos make me cry tears of joy. I mean, it was almost like we weren’t in a bug infested wonderland. With her slight wind blown hair and only one good sunflower. She made it work. I have this feeling that whenever I am in a rut or feel like a horrible photographer that all I will have to do is text her father to do a photo shoot and all my faith will be restored. Skylar is one of my favorite Sunflowers, and I hope to keep working with her! I hope you all enjoy!

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Beautiful Sunflowers in Water

“if the ocean can calm itself, so can you. we are both salt water mixed with air.” – Nayyirah Waheed My summer was filled with photographing beautiful humans. Body positivity is so hard. One day you can be completely for you. Everything is beautiful, and fuck what every one else says. Then the next day, all you can see is flaws and all you can think about is what every one has said. It’s one of the worst roller coasters you can be on. I want to get off, and these ladies do too. They all feared what they would look like, and it took a little while to get them truly comfortable. But once they did, that’s when the magic happened. Stephanie She was the first that dived into the water to produce magic! She isn’t one to really be serious, but she looks like a fucking Sports Illustrated Model! I mean look at her glowing green eyes. When those bad boys caught the light just right… goosebumps. She’s such a natural babe, with a gorgeous smile and beautiful personality to match. Could you imagine seeing yourself for the first time from someone else’s eyes? Her first reaction was, “YASSSS!” Savannah Savannah’s session produced one of my favorite photos to date. Yup, its the one in the middle. It is so powerful. We need to love our bodies and treat them well. In order to do that we need to start mentally. Telling ourselves we love what we see and what we are made of. As you can see she enjoyed all of my suggestions. They were different from past sessions with her, but they made her open up and laugh. She has such an amazing smile. She thanked me later for not only making her feel beautiful, but for all that I do for each of my sunflowers. Elizabeth This woman. Haha. It is so hard to put into words how I feel about this woman. She’s always been so real, and promoted loving yourself. It was her that propelled me to go into the self love direction. She is so strong, although I think at times she needs a reminder. Look at how stunning she is! She owned this session. All the nip slips in the world couldn’t stop her from loving her body and enjoying herself. She almost cried when she saw these. I truly only…

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Finding Myself in the Company of Misery

“you not wanting me was the beginning of me wanting myself thank you” ― Nayyirah Waheed You do yourself such a disservice when you don’t take the time to find yourself. Think about it; You spend a good chunk of your life being heavily influenced and taught by others. They teach you good and bad habits, and you are influenced by your peers around you. Most of the time, we are convinced that we aren’t being influenced by anyone. We think we are in control when actually there is nothing about us that truly is. Which is why it is so important to take the time to do it. To truly figure out what you love and what you love to do. For me, I just started to maybe a year ago. When I found myself in one of my low periods. I was convinced that I couldn’t do anything because I had no money. But really I didn’t do anything because I wasn’t really trying to. I knew things I wanted to pursue, but I never tried to figure out how to get them done. So I made a list. I made a list of everything that made me happy. Whether it was things to do or clothes to wear. Pinterest was my best friend. I found myself staying up late at night just saving ideas. Things I found myself saving more then once were put on my list. This helped with passing fancies. My list: Overalls Dreads Glitter Photography Nose Piercing Colorful Hair Blogging Seeing New Places VW Vans Tiny Houses These are the things that I love. I took the time out of what I thought was a too busy life to figure this out. I put on glitter every day, because it makes me happy. My overalls get worn so much more then my other pants because it makes me happy. See the trend? Take the time to find yourself. I know it sounds cliche, but you really only get one life to live. It makes no sense to live it how others do, when it doesn’t make you truly happy. Sit down, make a list. Change the list. Scratch the whole thing and make a new one. Whatever it takes. As the great Dr. Seuss would say, “Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”…

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10 Songs that Make me Extremely Happy

I love music so much. It is the only thing that has been consistent in my life. People are constantly pushing for me to be different, but music always remains true. Having this love for music allows me to appreciate it in many different ways. One of those, is me constantly being able to find new music to love. I figured I would share a piece of me, by listing my top 10 songs that make me happy. It Ain’t Me (With Selena Gomez) by Kygo Glorious by Foxes Most Girls by Hailee Steinfield Learn to Let Go by Kesha Malibu by Miley Cyrus Lost and Found by Ellie Goulding Hard Times by Paramore Nights With You by MO Praying by Kesha Perfect Places by Lorde.. or pretty much any song from Melodrama   What are your favorite songs? I’d love to hear them! Drop them in the comments below! And if some of these re your favorite too, don’t be afraid to send me an email so wee can become best friends!  

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The Temporary Feeling

“you look at me and cry everything hurts i hold you and whisper but everything can heal” ― Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey We are given the gift of feelings. It is what gives us so much more out of life. When we feel sad, we cry. We cry by ourselves, and we cry with others. But when we are happy, we laugh. We laugh and the whole world, it seems, is laughing with us. Our temporary feelings come with outlets to be able to bring them out. I would never wish not to feel, because who would I be then? My whole persona is based on my ability to constantly laugh and smile. To see the brighter side for others, even if I cannot see them for myself. The ability to see the brighter side, is based on me feeling hope. So who would I be? But those temporary feelings at times destroy me. Sometimes they can take all of my energy and will and suffocate me. Until I truly feel like dying. I stop laughing. I stop hoping. It all just stops. I can feel it creeping up now, as I try to figure out what I am going to do with the rest of my life. It is as if the world is picking on me. Like everyone else is having a good time, and I am just standing in the corner waiting to go home. That comes with the territory. The ability to feel so strongly is probably why I struggle with depression. Because when I am happy, I am truly happy. But when I am sad, it is like the sky has gone black. There are no stars to help guide me, but instead, the darkness is consuming me. But what I have learned throughout the years, is that these are all temporary feelings. They all eventually pass, as long as you let them. When I lost a dear friend of mine, I felt a different sadness I had never felt before. I had thought I would always have this feeling when I thought of her. However, after 2 years, that isn’t the case. Instead of constant anger and sadness, I feel grateful for knowing her. Happy from the memories I will always have of her. Eager to carry on her legacy. In an instant, the tides change. Instead of pushing against them, I have learned to…

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