10 Songs that Make me Extremely Happy

I love music so much. It is the only thing that has been consistent in my life. People are constantly pushing for me to be different, but music always remains true. Having this love for music allows me to appreciate it in many different ways. One of those, is me constantly being able to find new music to love. I figured I would share a piece of me, by listing my top 10 songs that make me happy. It Ain’t Me (With Selena Gomez) by Kygo Glorious by Foxes Most Girls by Hailee Steinfield Learn to Let Go by Kesha Malibu by Miley Cyrus Lost and Found by Ellie Goulding Hard Times by Paramore Nights With You by MO Praying by Kesha Perfect Places by Lorde.. or pretty much any song from Melodrama   What are your favorite songs? I’d love to hear them! Drop them in the comments below! And if some of these re your favorite too, don’t be afraid to send me an email so wee can become best friends!  

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The Temporary Feeling

“you look at me and cry everything hurts i hold you and whisper but everything can heal” ― Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey We are given the gift of feelings. It is what gives us so much more out of life. When we feel sad, we cry. We cry by ourselves, and we cry with others. But when we are happy, we laugh. We laugh and the whole world, it seems, is laughing with us. Our temporary feelings come with outlets to be able to bring them out. I would never wish not to feel, because who would I be then? My whole persona is based on my ability to constantly laugh and smile. To see the brighter side for others, even if I cannot see them for myself. The ability to see the brighter side, is based on me feeling hope. So who would I be? But those temporary feelings at times destroy me. Sometimes they can take all of my energy and will and suffocate me. Until I truly feel like dying. I stop laughing. I stop hoping. It all just stops. I can feel it creeping up now, as I try to figure out what I am going to do with the rest of my life. It is as if the world is picking on me. Like everyone else is having a good time, and I am just standing in the corner waiting to go home. That comes with the territory. The ability to feel so strongly is probably why I struggle with depression. Because when I am happy, I am truly happy. But when I am sad, it is like the sky has gone black. There are no stars to help guide me, but instead, the darkness is consuming me. But what I have learned throughout the years, is that these are all temporary feelings. They all eventually pass, as long as you let them. When I lost a dear friend of mine, I felt a different sadness I had never felt before. I had thought I would always have this feeling when I thought of her. However, after 2 years, that isn’t the case. Instead of constant anger and sadness, I feel grateful for knowing her. Happy from the memories I will always have of her. Eager to carry on her legacy. In an instant, the tides change. Instead of pushing against them, I have learned to…

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How I Started My Blog and How You Can Start One Too.

*This post contains affiliate links. That means, if you click on the links and purchase something, I’ll get a percentage of the sale. No worries, it’s at no extra cost to you! Yes, this is one of those posts about starting a blog. And yes, I am going to write it anyway. But that is mostly because I have had a lot of messages in my inbox about how to, so I figured I could refer them to this from now on instead of a long drawn out message. Forgive me now? Cool. Let’s begin. First, you need to figure out how serious this blog will be. I don’t care what anyone says. Taking care of a self hosted blog is so time consuming. Yes, you get all the perks of completely personalizing your own site. And yeah, you get to fully own your own site. But in case no one told you; IT IS A LOT OF WORK. I have redone my site four or five times and have sunk a lot of money into this bad boy that I am not proud of. So if you aren’t prepared to fully take care of a self hosted website, WordPress.com (peep the bolded .com, not the .org site) Blogger, Tumblr etc. would be way more your speed. You can still have a little customization and make it your own. When I first started out, I had a wordpress.com blog that I loved dearly, but I needed to grow. So if you think you are going to be pretty serious about this, continue on reading! So you’ve decided that you want the thrill of owning a self hosted blog You are going to first need hosting and a domain name. Lucky for you, you can get them both at the same place. I use BlueHost for my website hosting and also purchased my domain name through them. They give really great deals for when you are first starting out which allowed me to start on this journey with very little starter costs. And right now they are apparently having a birthday sale, so you can get hosting for as little as $2.65 a month! (That’s through 7/18/2017, so hurry!) I have had only a few kinks with them, but 99% of the time, my site runs really smooth. And its super easy to set up! You just click on this link and follow through to…

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Start em While They are Young: Meet Paislee, my Youngest Sunflower

“we are all born/ so beautiful/ the greatest tragedy is/ being convinced we are not” ― Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey As I am sure most of you know, I ran a giveaway a few weeks ago to celebrate my blog anniversary. I gave away two sunflower sessions to two beautiful and deserving women. One of those women asked if she could give her session to her daughter, Paislee. Of course I said yeah. But I was even more excited when I thought about what this meant. Paislee and children like her, are a good example of what we once were. She is adorable. Even when she doesn’t smile, she just has so much energy that it’s contagious. You can tell she loves so fiercely, because the entire time she saw an animal, she just wanted to pet it and take it home. She acknowledged the beauty in the world, as she ran free spirited from picnic table to picnic table, trying to climb on top. Paislee was a force to be reckon with. And it made me think of what I once was. Did I too not care about what others thought about me so heavily? Did I also run, free spirited and loving of all things? When I think about it, I think I did. So what does this mean? Well, to put it simply, it means that we are taught not to love ourselves. We are taught by our peers and society that our bodies have to be a certain way, that our hair has to be a certain way, and that we can not love everything. But Paislee has taught me, that I don’t have to lose those parts of me. I can remain care free, and love myself and everyone around me if I choose. I can choose to not let what others say to or about me impact my soul. Oh, and I can have all the stray kitties I see. You can schedule a session with me here.

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Falling In Love With You

“how you love yourself is how you teach others to love you” ― Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey Every one is so desperate for love. They want it so badly, even if it comes from all the wrong places. They find love through the kiss of a punch or the slit of a tongue. Sometimes it is in the tears that they cry into their pillows every night. They are so desperate that they are content with how that love feels and have become accustomed to it. This is why so many people fall for the ones that continue to hurt them. And it comes from experience. Which is why over and over again, when you talk to someone and ask them why they take the hurt that they do, it is normally accompanied by a look of disbelief. Like, “Is this not what love is? Because it is all I’ve ever known.” And if you were to try to dive deeper into their being, you will probably find a history of undeveloped self love. They haven’t taken the time to develop love for themselves and therefor are unable to recognize how others should love them. Most of the time they deem themselves as unworthy of decent human beings and see themselves as a burden. As a result, that’s how others tend to see them too. And the cycle continues of surrounding yourself with sub par people who don’t really want the best for you and don’t really know what love is themselves and are just as convinced as you that how they treat you is okay. Which is why when people come to me upset and are wondering how to find someone that will love them unconditionally I immediately tell them, “It starts with you.” You must fall in love with yourself. Self love is magic. Once you have identified what you are worth and stand by it firmly the rest of the world sees it too. You start to radiate such positive energy and start to only attract people that also give off positive energy. You also get rid of the people who only see you as a problem that they need to fix. You will attract genuine love and support and that is when they will come. Instead of you searching they will come into your life like the missing piece of the puzzle. Waiting to be finished and…

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