Anna: The Girl That Looks Like Me

“Self love is an ocean and your heart is a vessel. Make it full, and any excess will spill over into the lives of the people you hold dear. But you must come first.” ― Beau Taplin I had the honor of doing what was my second boudoir photo shoot where my subject was partially nude. Anna is a babe. She rocked every single thing I asked her to do. I was a little nervous, and I really wasn’t sure where the boundaries were. I treaded so carefully that there were times she shocked me! She is beautiful and confident, And she looked just like me. For the first time, I saw some of me within my subject. You always see the bigger girls that struggle with accepting themselves and being confident in their body. When I was younger, people use to make fun of me because I was so small. They always told me that I needed to eat more. That there wasn’t enough meat on my bones. So I never really thought my body was beautiful either. There was no confidence in being as skinny as I was. No one really understood either, because they thought I should be happy and that no one was making fun of my body. They couldn’t have been more wrong. So when I was shooting Anna I saw and felt what I wish more people could see. Even skinny women, have body issues. Anna showed me what being a confident skinny woman looked like. She showed me who I could be, if I just love myself a little more. She glowed without mercy. She’s just like me, and she is beautiful. & so am I. I would love to work with more beautiful humans! You can learn more here.

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I Need You: A Plea to my Inner Strength

I don’t always say it but when I do, just know I mean it. It isn’t something I like admitting because I feel like it makes me look weak. Don’t mistake this for weakness. I can live without you. If I have to, I will. But I don’t want to. Because that means that I would then forever be a shell of a person. I would have no will to do or to be anything. The bed would be my only friend and the darkness would probably be my lover. No one really wants to be around someone that doesn’t want to fight. Sometimes I feel like I am close to that person. Every time I get so sad that I cry everyday or every time I feel that ache in my chest for more. I want to give into the sadness and just lay there. Whatever happens, happens. I’m not where I want to be or who I want to be but working on me isn’t an option when there are so many others around me who need my attention. So I call to you and you wake up. But you are so disappointed in me because the call is not for me. It’s for others. And they eat you up, until you are too tired to keep going. Since it is not for me, you feel no need to fight either, and you fall back asleep. Until the next time. And the cycle continues. Sometimes you stay around, and we talk about me. It’s nice for a while. We talk about all of the things we wish to do. We sing our favorite songs, check off our to do lists, and plan for the future. Everything is so exciting. Until you once again are used for others, and are too tired to be with me. I know we have a lot of healing to do. But I miss you. I miss the fire you brought to my life. Every day I woke up with a new purpose and was eager to put on my clothes and sing with you. To laugh and dream. Because we are dreamers, you and I. We dream of the life we will live together 5 years from now. We are whole. I need you. I need you to not give up on us, on our future. I want the day to come when…

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Chelsea + The Wind

“i am a museum full of art but you had your eyes shut” ― Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey The magic that is progression. Maybe last week, I didn’t really see any changes to my work. I thought I was producing the same photos after every session. I knew what I wanted to produce in my head, but I wasn’t seeing it in editing. Long story short, I was in a rut. Enter; Wind. Wind has the opportunity to completely change an image. I purposely asked Chelsea to shoot at the beach to incorporate as much wind as possible. To my surprise, what I imagined in my head was coming to life. The emotion, the wind swept hair, the beautiful dress. It was all hitting. It was almost like I had a checklist in my head and I was checking all the boxes. After almost every photo I would look back at my boyfriend and cheese so hard. I was so happy. I was finally progressing, thanks to the wind and Chelsea. Chelsea has such a natural beauty. Although she told me she was really nervous, she settled in rather quickly. The wind took her hair and the water splashed around us. It was like a scene from a movie. So I would like to thank Mother Nature. Thank you for producing the wonderful phenomenon that is wind. And thank you for helping me get out of my rut. The results were stunning. You can check out more from Chelsea’s session below! & you can learn more about a session with me, here.

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Chelsey + the Flowers in the Tub

“The kindest words my father said to me Women like you drown oceans.” ― Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey One of the greatest feelings is when I conquer new things. Whether they are just something I have always wanted to try, or if I had been scared to attempt it. This photo shoot, I simply had not attempted. I honestly never thought I would be able to. Never in a million years did I think someone I knew would let me. Yet, here we are. I’m not going to lie, Chelsey did amaaaazinngggg. Cause I had no idea what I was doing or how they were going to turn out. I knew what I had pictured in my head more than likely wasn’t going to happen in real life but I was still hopeful. Honestly, 99% of the time I was just trying to make sure my ISO wasn’t too high. I didn’t want to lose a whole afternoon to too much noise. But then I would snap shots that made me excited. The ones where the light was hitting just right. Or the fierceness was just too much to handle. As the time went on, I could tell she was getting more comfortable. (Even though it was so hot in that bathroom!!) This was my very first “Bath Tub Water” session.. Or whatever you would call it. And Chelsey was a trooper. There were a lot of laughs and a lot of sitting and staring. Was also a lot of lens changing. There was even a point where I wasn’t sure that any of the photos were going to be usable. But for my first try, I think I nailed it. It helped to have such a beautiful subject. I hope to offer an all around experience soon, because I really want to help people feel their best human. Too many of us struggle with body positivity and self love. I want to help. Here are a few more from her session: Pin it! And If you would like to schedule a session with me, you can read all about it here.  

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Skylar + The Fabulous Green Empty Lot Next to Kroger

Have you ever just seen an area and thought it had wasted potential? There is this area near where I work that is just sitting there. The grass has grown really tall and it honestly looks like a jungle. But like a mini jungle, for like children. Enter Skylar! This was right up her alley! She turned a wasted mini jungle into a photogenic playground. I mean even her black and white photos make me cry tears of joy. I mean, it was almost like we weren’t in a bug infested wonderland. With her slight wind blown hair and only one good sunflower. She made it work. I have this feeling that whenever I am in a rut or feel like a horrible photographer that all I will have to do is text her father to do a photo shoot and all my faith will be restored. Skylar is one of my favorite Sunflowers, and I hope to keep working with her! I hope you all enjoy!

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