Becoming my Biggest Fan
I am probably my biggest obstacle.
When there is something I want to do, within minutes I am already in my head with a thousand reasons why not to do it. It has honestly held me back from a lot of different ventures in life. And when I am able to look past it and still try, it’s like I am in front of a crowd of a thousand mes, with the biggest smirks, booing me back into my shell.
It’s mentally exhausting to say the least.
Honestly I have only been confident in a few of my abilities my entire life. One was my athleticism, and the other was my singing. Everything else was a hit or miss, with me believing that majority of the time would be a miss.
I know there are a lot of people who are like this.
They have a few stellar traits that they know they are good at, but everything else they question. All the new things they want to try, they stand in the way, as if to save themselves from a doomed future.
But I don’t think we do it on consciously.
It usually happens within minutes. You want to try something new, your voice in your head starts to tell you all the reasons why it won’t work, so you decide against it. Forever stuck and unable to really come out of your comfort zone.
You make a pros and cons list, and even when the pros outweigh the cons you still decide against it, almost as if you never even read the pros side.
So how do we change this?
Recently, for about the past year, I have changed my approach when it comes to wanting to try new things. The very first thing I do, is dream about it. I dream about all the success I could have and how much happiness it will bring to my life. I dream about how it will impact me in the long run, until I can no longer imagine my life without it. I love dreaming, so by inserting it into something I love makes it a more realistic opportunity.
I then look up how I can make it happen. What’s the point of doing all that dreaming if I’m not going to at least try to make it happen?
Then I finally clear my head for however long I need, and I quickly make split second decisions to start my journey.
This was literally how I took the plunge and started this blog.
If I had sat around and kept thinking of all the reasons why I shouldn’t, I never would have.
But here we are.
I am slowly changing the tide in my mind and becoming my biggest fan.
The more I accomplish, the easier it is to make the decisions. The less I can hear myself boo, and it sets me up for the next thing I might want to do. It starts a domino effect, like, “I can start my own photography business because I started that blog a year ago.” Things I didn’t think I could do, I did and am still doing.
And I want to keep seeing myself doing more.
I don’t want to settle. I want to keep pushing myself to conquer more fears and stretch my comfort zones.
And I know you do too.